This is also something that you don't fully understand unless you go through it. People can say everything to prepare you for this momen, it won't do anything. It's just something else to add to the list of things you don't expect untill it happens. So much that happens on this program no one understand unless they have too done this program. People back home may try and userstand but they won't get it. That's okay, that's why the people you work with become your support system because they are goig through it with you.
Have a magical day!